Aurora Faith....

She was born July 22, 2012. She was 4.5lbs and 16inches long. Born 6 weeks early and spent a month in the NICU learning how to breath on her own and learning how to eat. She came home weighing 5lbs and 18inches long. I loved the early days with her. She was such a quite baby and nursed so well. When she was 2 months old she got to meet her daddy for the first. I was so proud of my husband for defending our country that I forgave him for missing the first 2 months of our daughters life. As Aurora has grown she has become a very oppionated little girl. She fusses when she is not done nursing, or if you change the tv channel from what she is into, (she loves to listen / watch Glee, Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, and Suburgatory). She never got to meet her sister Ashley, but I know that she is being watched over by her and my sister who passed away 6 years ago.

Part 2

After I was released from the hospital I keep calling and asking for updates on Ashley. I was so worried about her and wanted to know that she was ok. I ended up being told that I had no rights to ask about her and that the parents where grateful for the donated cord blood. I was angry and hurt. My new born baby was fine and came home a month after she was born. 


In September I was served court papers. The parents where suing me for slander and solicitation because i asked them to pay me back for the cord blood. I was court ordered to stop using my online accounts and to keep my mouth shut about the case. My lawyer was amazing and keep me calm during this mess. My lawyer had told me that i would most likely never get to meet Ashley till she came looking for me, and that I should be happy with any contact that the parents allowed. He went thru everything that was in the adoption decree and found where the adoptive parents had REQUESTED that I be involved in every part of Ashley's life. That they wanted me to have unsupervised visitation with her and to have a say in her medical and educational. I had no idea about any of this. My lawyer presented it all to the judge saying that I only wanted to know that my daughter was ok, and to maybe meet her and spend time with her. That I was even ok with it being supervised visitation. The judge made the parents eat their own words in the long run. He ordered them to allow me to have visitation and to keep me updated on all Ashley's medical care and on her grades in school. I was shocked. I had never heard or known of a birth mother being granted any of this. 


I got to meet Ashley. She was more amazing then I imagined. She looked liked her sperm donor, but had so much of me. She was super smart and wanted to know everything about me and her sister. She was in remission and wanted to meet her baby sister to thank her for saving her life. 


Ashley passed away February 22, 2012 after being hit by a car on her way to school. I miss her, and feel like I wasn't a good mom for not being there to save her.